I’m not exactly counting down the days that my husband returns home, but rather learning to adjust my life while he is away . And what an adjustment it has been . I have reached a point with this situation to think about his new adventure , ” pridefully,” rather than depressed, disgusted or any of the other negative words I can insert.
However; I’m ready for a vacation . Like a real vacation one with all expenses paid . A really lavish destination too . The kind with white sand beaches, the ones where they pull back your covers at night and lay chocolates on your pillow . A vacation within a vacation , where miraculously a nanny appears , one for each child . And she dresses them and puts them to bed and every now and then all I hear is a faint, ‘Hi Mom! Going to the…see you later.” I’m adding up my coins now so that I can make this happen this year and really, really soon.
In the meantime, I’ve experienced another birthday without Anthony , our baby boy turned 4 years old . We have celebrated another holiday over the phone and we probably had our first disagreement since he left …all over the phone . Its a new part of life that I am adjusting to . One thing I have learned throughout this process is not to complain but to give thanks for every opportunity and this new season of life. On a lighter note his classes have started and that means that we are at least a few days closer to graduation .
My girls have found their new voice in vlogs , pretty fun to see what they come up with each day. They have the funniest personalities already . And such giving hearts. I have watched them go into church and hug each and every person they walk passed ( a trait they probably didn’t inherit from me ) and then I noticed them give away every piece of candy or gum I had in my purse. They have the same generous ways when they have people over to the house . Already they have acknowledged their place in the world they have learned how to serve and the principle of giving . They have found their calling and are walking in part of their purpose for life. As a parent it is my responsibility to nurture their life and their gifts. Making an investment in your children’s life goes above and beyond clothes and shoes, investments make their dreams come alive.
My sweet second child , Pier has been one of those guys that if he found something he likes he’s there 100% for it. When he was a tot he was really into Power Rangers and everything was about Power Rangers, he changed from that to Football and from Football to basketball. His idea is that if he’s going to do something he’s going to be the best at it . He studies it , he sleeps ,eats and breathes basketball , practicing day in and day out . Never giving up and each morning he says, Mommy I dreamed I was playing in a large arena . He can see himself bigger than he is right now Sometimes we can take our life prompts from children, we could possibly be more successful adults.
One thing I have learned about life is that your mind has to be fixed and focused on all things positive . That is the only way to gain positive results. I think we as a community have focused too long on the negative issues that we face as a people for so long that we are not living up to our ability . We were not placed on the earth to worry ,to fear ,to doubt our self worth , to think constantly about dead things, to fight, to fuss or to create problems. We were placed on the earth to prosper and be in good health . It’s okay to give and serve and its okay not to be the center of attention all the time . There is a lesson in everything . I learn something new daily.
Living and Learning